Acid Wash

I can feel the heat rising around me through the blue-dim haze. As I sit in the covered walkway, my heart beats faster and faster and slowly quickens to terrific stillness. Opening my eyes and looking through the slits framed by their lids, I squint at the world I hate. The world I loathe. I breathe the anger from my heart and I writhe in the heat radiating off my sweat-glistened skin. They are not like me. There is no one like this. There is no one. I shiver with energy and my mind screams at me to run. I run. The rain pours over my body, striping me of my feeling, of my emotions. This rain is toxic, acidic, cruelly mocking like those who surround me. So, I decide to stand with still sadness to sense my soul. I whimper with the washing of my wickedness and I kneel to the dirt that is sodden with the transgressions of humanity, laying my face upon its surface with closed eyes. I listen to the cries of the pure and feel the hope that slightly fades each second. Carefully I cup a handful and hide it away from the acid wash that pours from the envy-green clouds. I know what I must do. I know they must be saved.

Lackluster

I force this food into my mouth,
Into my body,
So I can live.

I'm not hungry.
I'm not thirsty.
I'm not anything.

I force myself to sleep,
In my bed,
So I can live.

I'm not tired.
I'm not exhausted.
I'm not anyone.

I force my mind into compliance,
Through my thoughts,
So I can live.

I'm not sad.
I'm not torn.
I'm not anymore.

Oh, It's You.

When the sun shines in my face and wakes me up, it reminds me of you.
While slightly harsh in act, in spirit the gentleness flows.
I love to bask in your caressing warmth no matter the damage it causes.
I love to smile at you and know that you provide me with life.
You are with me all day, following my every move until night takes over.
Then you are in my dreams, delicately stroking my body.
I sometimes wish that you weren't so far away, though.
I sometimes wish that you weren't so unobtainable.
But when I feel those things, I remember your smile, your face,
And I remember that you care for me no matter the distance.
For this I love you most.
For this I love you always.
Nothing can take me away from you.